This piece are presents the struggle of mental health, for me and for others. For the past year I’ve used art to express my anger and insecurities. For this piece specifically I decided to include the five senses as it relates to mental health issues. When this bowl was first thrown was a perfect circle, just like any ordinary bowl you’d find in your kitchen. But unlike those, I decided to push parts of the face into the inside and add a hand into the middle. Each one of these hand sculpted pieces are one of the five senses, and the middle includes a hand holding an eyeball. I Since I was expressing my mental state through art, this piece represents the constant panic attacks I went through. In the beginning of 2019, I began to fall into depression, and to this day I’m still trying to climb out of it. Worst of all it began to affect people around me, my academics, and my love for art. Painting, drawing, and sculpting is something I’ve been doing since I was a child, but suddenly I had no motivation to do it anymore. It was heartbreaking. My anxiety got worse and worse as time progressed and every time one little thing went wrong I would fall into an inescapable state of panic. It was a constant struggle to get through the day without breaking down. I started therapy and learned how to deal with all these feelings I had. My therapist taught me the “five senses tactic”. Whenever I began to feel out of control, I would list what I could taste, touch, see, smell, and hear. Don’t be mistaken, this wasn’t some magical cure to my problems, but it did help me make progress. As I slowly started to get better, my love for art began to come back. I forced myself to paint or draw or throw and it started to work. I enjoyed my passions again, and I wanted to show everyone that I was getting better. I made this piece to show that even though we struggle, our core will always be there. This perfect bowl was distorted and is now uneven, but it’s still beautiful. I wanted to bring awareness to mental health issues through my experiences, and I could do that through art.
By: Lily Matthews